19 and 20 August
Grandma in hospital !! felt so terrible ! 我好想睡觉啊~Not Feeling Well
hmm .. by writing all my feelings into my blog is to hope that i will remember and not to forget everything..be it good or bad .. it may become very precious in the future when i need it to recall all my past experiences and feelings...
My cousin brought gram to bedok polyclinic on fri cos she complained chest pain, and i cant take leave and i went home late due to exam. the bedok polyclinic doc actually scolded my cousin saying that my gram should have gone to the A&E on thurs nitez, if she does not feel better after taking the maximum of 3 heart pain pills .. and gram consumed more than that .. Wen my cousin send my grandma home,i was messaging my cousin asking wat the doc says, my cousin say grandma felt some pain at her chest area while on the cab back and the pain became unbearable. Out of a sudden, she felt real uncomfortable and started vomitting, my cousin was really worried and petrified .. so i ask her to send her to A&E immediately .. As i faster call my uncle they all. I was very afriad and cant concentrate on my exam. At nitez i got meet my friend than my uncle ask mi dun come down coz it's very late.
today, i went to the hospital to accompany her, i felt so sad seeing the nurses and doctors drawing out her blood, it really chilled me to see gram's blood being drawn into the needles .. and seeing gram screwing up her face due to the pain hurt me lots .. gram told me some shocking news saying her gastric "bag" (wateva u called that) burst, and gram needed to see a specialist, i got so worried that i went to clarify with a doc.. the doc took the report and told me that, they suspected internal bleeding that might be causing gram's anemia now .. and there might be a tumor in her tummy which a scope investigation is advised to be conducted, and he told us that we knew about it and i flared up at that doctor, saying we knew of her having anemia. The doc was saying there's this hard object in her tummy (suspected to be a cesis). But i wasnt informed of her having internal bleeding which might be the cause of her anemia, if that's the case, we would have long ago persuaded her to conduct the scope investigation .. cos now, even if we do the scope, there might be a possibility that she might have a tumor and it being in the later stage, due to the delay! and the scope investigation has its risk, the doc says that its 1 out of 17 mil that the scope might cut tru the inner body and also might induce vomitting.. the doc will be inserting 2 scopes into gram's body if she accepted the investigation, one tru her mouth and the other tru the anus .. the truth will be revealed then, if not the doc can only help my gram to diffuse blood everytime she get admitted. gram keeps getting admitted to the hospital, its practically like her second home, i am fully aware that gram dont like going to the hospital cos they always draw her blood etc ,its painful for her, but it hurts my heart even more, seeing her suffer tru all these pains .. she's so old now, yet has to go tru all these tortures .. it hurts so badly .. i feel so useless .. i can't do anything .. especially when she keeps saying that dying is better .. Haiz.....
1. Wanna graduate from PSB asap by Dec 
